Monday, March 14, 2016

Where Have I Been?

Allow me to utilize that wonderfully annoying technique made world famous by politicians and public figures: ask myself questions and then answer them! WHEEEE! This'll be fun!

Where have you been?
I haven't gone anywhere, I've just been going through a period of doing too much and then attempting to refocus my life. So the things that I just didn't have time for, like this blog for example, have fallen by the wayside. But as far as my day to day life I've still be doing me. Still performing, still living, still evolving.

Does this mean you'll update this more regularly?
Probably not. I'd like to think you'll see more frequent posts here but I'm not about to promise something that I know I probably won't deliver on. There may be a temporary uptick, but I'm not about to promise anything like a weekly/monthly/whatever update going into the future. Not right now at any rate.

Will you ever make more videos for your Youtube Channel?
Yes! Yes I will. This is something that's fallen off by accident. I know I said over a year ago that videos would be less frequent, but I never intended for things to go completely dark for as long as they have. I'm a creature of habit, and sadly I got out of the habit of setting time aside to make videos. There may be other announcements coming in the future related to this, but I want to get my ducks in a row before I jump the gun on that.

Are you still performing?
Absolutely. Though video updates have gone quiet, I've never stopped hitting the stage whenever I've had the opportunity. I've also been making an effort to get out to more shows even if I'm not performing in them, so I've been around for more stuff in my semi-local area both on and off the stage. I've even developed a new stage persona.

Wait, so you're performing as something other than Vera?

Well, hosting at any rate. I sometimes co-host the Green Mountain Cabaret in a genderfuck persona known as Snow Peepers. When I say "genderfuck" I mean that Snow possesses clear traits of being both male and female, with the deliberate intention of confusing the hell out of people. Snow is a bit of a different beast from Vera. Vera is me (specific performance number affectations notwithstanding) with my natural feminine traits being emphasized over my masculine ones, while Snow is very much a character that I play with a personality not intended to be a representation of my day to day life in anyway. The reason for Snow's creation was that as a host I needed to lock down a more specific stage persona, and the direction I decided to go was not a direction I necessarily wanted be viewed as how Vera is. If you ever turn out for a performance you'll see what I mean.

Were you away because you're transitioning to being a woman fulltime?
No, and as I've said before I do not believe that I ever will go down that path. I strongly believe that I do have both sides to myself: I don't feel more right as a woman than I do as a man. However, I am experimenting with my own gender fluidity in that I'm trying out riding the middle ground a bit more in my day to day life. What I mean by that is up to this point I've basically either been Vera full on (make-up, hair, the complete look) or in total male mode. It was either all one or all the other. I'm experimenting with trying out the middle ground a bit more in my day to day life. For example I plan to get my ears pierced soon, which is something I decided against some time ago because I don't like the look of guys with earrings. But I'm going to give it a try and see how it feels having what in my mind is something more representative of my female side being present even when I'm operating more or less as a male. Now, I may well decide that this isn't working for me, let the piercings heal over and go back to what I was doing before. But who knows? That's part of the fun: finding out what's next.

Anything else?
Not right now, but we'll see what the future holds!